Seeing Your Own Reflection
What do you see when you look in the mirror?
A familiar face that believed in looking at the world through angel eyes - looking for goodness, love, faithfulness, kindness, peace and joy? Or is it now a blazing heart; boiling with anger, angst and frustration towards life and your own self – leading to thoughts and emotions that you never imagined would grab a part of you? Do you see misery fogging up the glass that only a fading shadow reflects against the dim light? Are you losing your faith in goodness when all around is far from freedom, justice and equality?
What is happening to you? Greek philosophy says, “Know Thyself.” Understanding the self is a very reflective process that will never reach completion until we breathe our last. Knowing why you behave the way you do, why you think what you think, why you say what you say – sometimes it feels like a mystery, but most of the time it’s not.
When you keep everything to yourself, there’s only so much you can know about your own nature. But once you allow yourself to get close to others, to let them under your skin; when you take off the mask and just let them see you as you are – you discover things you never knew about your own character.
Your insecurities, sensitivities, need for acceptance and need to be understood surface before you even realize it. In fact, you never knew you could be this way. You realize the Jekyll and Hyde within and you don’t like what you see. It’s painful to acknowledge that you have reached a point your heart literally pumps up when the thoughts come flooding in – robbing you of peace, joy and love. A prisoner of your own device, you collapse to the ground and question yourself, “How did I get here? What have I done? … I was not like this before…”
Where is the love? Where is the joy? Where is the peace? Where is the hope?
Why do you keep running away? Why do you keep coming back? Why do you watch others and take the weight of the world upon your own shoulders? Why must you care what others say, think or do? Why are you beginning not to care at all?
Why are you starting to believe? Why do you betray trust? Why do you hold on to the past? Are you moving on? Why do you think so much? Are you forgetting to dream?
Why do you expect people to understand your steps that are meant to be walked alone? Why are you so engrossed in your own world that you forget to try to understand others?
Why are you trying to change? Why are you remaining the same? Why are you rebelling when your aim has always been to strive for perfection?
The questions are a million…the answers are elusive…some answers you do know, but it takes a little too much to accept things you cannot change. You realize you are not sure if you’re strong enough. Only the love of Christ and prayers of those who care carry you through.
A familiar face that believed in looking at the world through angel eyes - looking for goodness, love, faithfulness, kindness, peace and joy? Or is it now a blazing heart; boiling with anger, angst and frustration towards life and your own self – leading to thoughts and emotions that you never imagined would grab a part of you? Do you see misery fogging up the glass that only a fading shadow reflects against the dim light? Are you losing your faith in goodness when all around is far from freedom, justice and equality?
What is happening to you? Greek philosophy says, “Know Thyself.” Understanding the self is a very reflective process that will never reach completion until we breathe our last. Knowing why you behave the way you do, why you think what you think, why you say what you say – sometimes it feels like a mystery, but most of the time it’s not.
When you keep everything to yourself, there’s only so much you can know about your own nature. But once you allow yourself to get close to others, to let them under your skin; when you take off the mask and just let them see you as you are – you discover things you never knew about your own character.
Your insecurities, sensitivities, need for acceptance and need to be understood surface before you even realize it. In fact, you never knew you could be this way. You realize the Jekyll and Hyde within and you don’t like what you see. It’s painful to acknowledge that you have reached a point your heart literally pumps up when the thoughts come flooding in – robbing you of peace, joy and love. A prisoner of your own device, you collapse to the ground and question yourself, “How did I get here? What have I done? … I was not like this before…”
Where is the love? Where is the joy? Where is the peace? Where is the hope?
Why do you keep running away? Why do you keep coming back? Why do you watch others and take the weight of the world upon your own shoulders? Why must you care what others say, think or do? Why are you beginning not to care at all?
Why are you starting to believe? Why do you betray trust? Why do you hold on to the past? Are you moving on? Why do you think so much? Are you forgetting to dream?
Why do you expect people to understand your steps that are meant to be walked alone? Why are you so engrossed in your own world that you forget to try to understand others?
Why are you trying to change? Why are you remaining the same? Why are you rebelling when your aim has always been to strive for perfection?
The questions are a million…the answers are elusive…some answers you do know, but it takes a little too much to accept things you cannot change. You realize you are not sure if you’re strong enough. Only the love of Christ and prayers of those who care carry you through.
Now, the time has come for you to rise on eagles’ wings over sun.
Psalm 139:23-24
Search me, O God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24
Search me, O God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.
